The life of a porn addicted housewife.
Monday, June 06, 2005
Ap0k and I are of the same mindset. Life should be lived for today, not for tomorrow.
If there is something you want to do, then you should get out there and do it! If there is something you want to buy, save the money and go buy it!
Ap0k has a passion for his car. Some people can’t understand why he spends so much time, money, and energy on it. Of course these are the same people that buy cars they don’t want only because they are cheaper than the ones they really do want. If it makes him happy to work on his car, who am I to tell him he can’t?
I always want the latest and greatest computer crap. I want it to go FASTER! I want it to be BETTER! And I want it NOW! Never once has Ap0k told me I couldn’t have something. Speaking of which, I need to go get a new monitor for this computer. This one is getting some odd bends in it.
Most people would probably think we are crazy because we aren’t anal about saving money. Yes, we have a 401K, but that’s about it. I don’t want to be one of those people who make themselves miserable for what may or may not be their future. Why should you spend the best years of your life going without? No, I don’t think that the minute I turn 60 I will start to fall apart, but why spend 45 years driving yourself crazy worrying? Too many people work their life away and go without so that they can “save for their future” only to keel over and die right after they retire. I am sure their kids appreciate it though. My philosophy is to have a set amount of money in the bank that you never touch for emergencies, make sure the company you work for has good insurance, never overextend your credit, and pay your bills on time.
We very rarely make plans anymore because it seems that every time we do someone else throws a monkey wrench in them. After years of messed up plans we have pretty much came to the unspoken agreement that plans suck. I will say though that on the rare occasion we do make a plan to do something I never tell anyone else. If anyone in my family even gets an inkling that we have plans they will find some way to blow them out of the water.
Remember the surprise trip to Chicago that Ap0k took me on last month? That’s how life should be lived. Spontaneity can be a scary but wonderful thing. When you think about it, life itself is based on spontaneity. Do we plan to meet the love our lives at just that particular moment? Do we plan on having that car wreck on that particular day? Life throws us curveballs all of the time. It’s our job to catch those balls and run with them.
If you are weighed down by too many bills and too many responsibilities you run the risk of dropping those balls.
I am not saying that you shouldn’t have a stable life. Ap0k has worked for the same company for almost 20 years. I would consider that pretty stable. If he were to suddenly want to change careers it would be scary, but I would support him 100%, just as he supported me quitting my job. My stability comes from knowing that Ap0k will always be here with me no matter what happens.
Don’t stress over the future. The future is going to happen no matter what you do today. Why give yourself ulcers or risk a possible heart attack? Let the beauty of life unfold in front of you and see each day as a new adventure. Life is precious and you shouldn’t waste it by worrying and planning yourself to death.